Fifteenth Post -- asdf;klj

I am now on the ship.
We are still in port.
My brain is shot right now, I truly can't think well, so forgive me as I try to form something communicable. Like that word, I have no idea if it's used in the right place.

Anyways, I've been sick for the past however many days. I don't even know days anymore. I got on the ship on Tuesday, and it's currently Friday night. YES. I am slowly regaining composure. It's been dumb being sick for the first few days on board -- it's not seasickness though. I've had this rascal of a fever that is fighting to stay in my body. I still have a terrible sore throat, but I've been up and aboutish for today and yesterday.
Basically, I need grace. Learning about humbling myself lately, I'll do that now in brutal honesty. Lately, all these things have been stacking up on me that I've taken on to myself, and it gets tiring. I feel like I've been ripped away from God because of this sickness, and how busy I've been, so I haven't been able to spend any time to myself just to sit down with God and whine and scream like I normally do, so I've been bottling it all up inside. It's about to push me over if I don't stop now and re-think things a bit. I want to find rest in God again. I don't know how I will do this without God, in all honesty. I envy and respect those that live minute to minute life styles and still fit Jesus into their day. But it starts with Jesus, right? I try.
So I'm going to go talk with Him now and see if I can work some things out. In the midst of all the busyness, I'll do my best to keep you up to date. Right now, this is a call to prayer, because I truly do need it.
Prayer points = peace, rest, wisdom, perseverance, and a genuine heart for what we're doing.