Sorry, this might be short.
Actually, screw it, I'm staying up late.
We arrived in Bowen. Well, we arrived in Gladstone. Actually, we arrived in Brisbane. It's been awhile...
So blah blah blah blah, and now we're in Bowen. If you care to know, it's where they did a lot of the filming for the movie "Australia." I overheard people saying they didn't do it in Darwin, where the film is supposed to be based, because Darwin's city was too civilized. So they filmed it in Bowen. Now you have an idea of where I am. It's a ten minute walk down the wharf. Thirty minutes of walking will get us to heaven, otherwise known as McDonald's, the land of free internet and not cheap, but still crappy food.
I'm days, hours, minutes, seconds away from diving into the ocean and swimming out as far as possible. I stand a better chance of deriving awe and wonder in God from the utter despair of being stranded in the darkness amongst crashing waves and curious fish than from beating myself over my failures that are all too easy to focus on when I'm comfortable. God, give something else to focus on. My mind reeks of disorder. My stomach has been perpetually twisted in a knot, begging for something or someone to untie it and resolve my mental flogging. Woe is me, for I am a sinner. I have tasted and seen the goodness of God; without Him I am lost in darkness, subject to disorder, knotted in anxiety. "What is man that you are mindful of him?"
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Palmer! I was hoping you were still alive! I understand what you mean...I'm learning that I spend too much time focused on me altogether. Just fix your eyes on Jesus. Not you problems, your miseries, your sins, your joys, etc. Sometimes we don't know who we are but we know whose we are :D Love you Palm!
ReplyDeleteAmen.
ReplyDeleteI agree with Shelby. And I've been thinking about the same thing a lot. I've also been reading Corinthians and these two verses have really stuck out to me. 2 Cor. 4:16-18 "Therefore, we do not give up, even though our outer person is being destroyed, our inner person is being renewed day by day. For our momentary light affliction is producing for us an absolutely incomparable eternal weight of glory. So we do not focus on what is seen, but on what is unseen; for what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal." and 2 Cor. 12:10 "That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, I am strong."
ReplyDeleteAnd there's a verse that I REALLY wish I had highlighted but I didn't because I'm dumb that says basically whenever we feel tempted it's a good thing! Because that means that Satan is so afraid of us that he is trying extra hard to get us to fall.
Eh, that may have been a bad interpretation of the verse, but it gave me strength.
:') my friend. disgruntledhuman man. God spoke so much to me in that verse u just shared. Like just now. I had a horrible horrible morning and that made my day 100% better. I <3 God :)
ReplyDeleteThat's great! I love how God works.
ReplyDeletethere you are! I've missed you Matty. I'm definitely doing better than when I wrote this post, God is teaching me a lot, especially about the strength in weakness.
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